Oh God, where do I even start?
So much has been going through my mind for the past couple of days, I wish I could just numb myself with happiness. Oofta, that sounded really melodramatic. See what I mean?!
I feel very unloved by my friends, and I don't know if it is me, or them, or a combination of both... But the part that weirded me out most about all of this, is when I finally talked to my mom about it, she said, "I think you'll just need to talk to them."
It's not that I have been avoiding that, it's that I haven't even thought about it. Which proves that it's probably me, and not them. Or they're reacting to me. Maybe I'm the one being distant and cold, not them. Or maybe they're being distant and cold, and I'm sitting in my kitchen writing this blog in the fetal position because I feel so alone. Ughhhhhh.
Guyssss, why don't you love me? Fuuuuuuuuuuckkkkkkkkk.
Either I need to confront them, or I need to get my meds bumped up. But I'll probably have to do one before the other. Because God knows I'm handling this this way due to some imbalanced brain chemical thingers.
